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(Continued...)

I scrambled up, automatically trying to reach him, but he stepped back quickly.

“D-Don’t, Sam.”

“What?” I sobbed, on my hands and knees, my heart ripping open again, all fresh, raw edges.

“Don’t touch me. You-You can’t. I’m--not real.”

“What?” I cried. I can‘t breathe. “I don’t understand! Daryn, how--”

“Sam, you--you have to move on. Don’t waste your life! You can’t commit suicide--that’s crazy!”

My stomach was trying to push past my heart, which was lodged in my throat, and my legs seemed to consist only of jelly, but somehow I fought my way onto my feet, wobbling unsteadily. He seemed to sway forward, as if he wanted to help me, but his face twisted with pain; he didn‘t touch me.

“Daryn, you--I--you’re alive! But I--You died--I saw you--Oh, God, Daryn, it’s been so hard--” I couldn’t seem to form a complete, coherent sentence, especially not through the hiccupping sobs that made my breath hitch.

“Sam, I’m not--I am dead.”

A chill skittered down my spine, a weird feeling twisting in my gut. I ignored the little voice in the back of my head that doubted his presence, doubted that this was reality. Instead, I stumbled forward again, trying to go to him, but he stepped back from me, keeping out of reach.

I stopped, overwhelmed by the whole situation, confused, hurt. “Don’t--Don’t say that, Daryn. I don’t understand--you’re here, you-you’re alive. You came back--You came back to me!”

Needing to touch him, I moved, reaching forward, and grabbed his hands, trapping him. His skin was icy cold, hard, but solid, real. He was real.

“Sam,” he moaned, his face a mask of pain and regret. “I--I can’t stay. But I couldn’t--couldn’t let you take your own life.” He pulled his hands from my child-like grip, hesitating for a moment before finally wrapping his arms around me.

A sigh mixed with a laugh burst from me as my own arms wrapped around him, embracing him as tight as I could. It felt like coming home, familiar and comforting. But, as he held me, I slowly realized something was missing. Something, something…

Warmth. The warmth, the life--he was bereft of all vibrancy, a solid ghost.

He pulled back first, putting his cold hands on the sides of my face and tilting it up to look at him. His eyes, once such a sparkling green full of love and vitality, now hollow and black. Dead.

“Daryn…?”

“Sam, listen to me. I…I can’t stay with you. Shh, please, just listen. I will always be with you, in your heart. Forever and always. Till death and beyond. But, I can’t be here with you, Sam. You--You have to move on. You’re still so young; you’re whole life is ahead of you, waiting for you to live it!”

“--But I can’t go on without you, Daryn! I love you,” I choked, unable to keep it in.

“You can, Sammy,” he insisted, his lips pulling into the saddest smile I’d ever seen. “You have to. I’m not asking you to forget me, but you have to let me go. You have to live again, Sam. Love again.”

“I can’t I can’t I can’t,” I sobbed over and over. I didn’t want to let him go. I didn’t want to be without him.

“You must, Sammy. I--I have to go now. You have to let me go.  Please, make the best of your life, if not for yourself, do it for me. Don’t waste your life. You almost died, but you didn’t, you lived. There’s a reason you have a second chance. Don’t waste it by lingering over me, or killing yourself.”

He settled his cold lips over mine, giving me one last, bitter-sweet kiss. “I have to go now. Goodbye, Sam.”

“No!” I protested as he kissed my forehead with icy lips. I dug my fingers into his black coat, gripping as tight as I could, eyes squeezed shut, but then he was--gone. Just… gone.

I blinked open my watery eyes, staring through wet, clumped lashes at my empty hands, at the empty space before me. Gone. My head whipped around as I searched frantically for some trace, but there was none.

Gone. The word rang hollow over and over again in my head. “Daryn!” I screamed, my throat feeling raw.

He’s not coming back. I knew it, in my heart. I screamed anguish to the sky, but… I didn’t cry anymore.

He wants the best for me. I knew that in my heart also, but still, I screamed. Screamed until my lungs burned and my throat felt like it had been shredded. Screamed until I was numb.

And when I slumped to the ground, I felt lighter. I can let him go. I will always love him, but I can let him go. It’s what he wants. Gravel dug into the side of my face and scalp, slivers of pin needle rain kissing my other cheek, and I closed my eyes. This is my closure. This is what I really needed.

“I love you, Daryn. Thank you, and… goodbye.”

THE END.
i don't think this isn't what i wanted, not what i was going for, but this is how it came out.

behold, the ending. (oh so short)

fail'd.

i guess it's... ok... though. what do you think? any suggestions, crit?

i'd like to say, that, in all, this story is probably one of my best pieces of literature. maybe. :shrug:

:1 - [link]
:2 - [link]


!Jimmy

(c) me :B

afternote: i should say, that after that last line, she doesn't die or anything, she just goes to sleep for a little while, goes home, and then starts her life again. :B or soemthing.
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txrabbit Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Is it funny to make people cry D:< aghh! I loved this :) you are truly talented.
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xCountingBodiesx Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2010
that's what my bf said when he read it xDD
:U thank you very much! i was really proud of this one..
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txrabbit Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
haha, it is sad though, it's like a sad movie D: and your welcome :) you should be proudd~!
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Princess-Mangoo Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
My boyfriend got killed because of me almost just like this =[
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xCountingBodiesx Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2010
dear God... seriously? D: i am so sorry...
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Princess-Mangoo Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Its okay i miss him and i wish he was here but i know that i have to let go and move on just like your story
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xCountingBodiesx Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2010
:hug:
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Princess-Mangoo Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks
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0Indigo0 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
GOD YOU MADE ME CRY!! The ending is so sad and so hopeful at the same time... And original. I found it very original. I :heart: it!! :hug:
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Kittycat1805 Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2009
Are you trying to make me cry?! It is working.

I knew you were not going to go down the vampire route, as you have written a lot of material about them. Time to go for something else. A solid ghost sounds like fun though.
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